“I’m so tired…”
I said those words about 12 times this past week. Lol no I’m not exaggerating…I said them the moment I woke up. I said that when someone annoyed me. I said those words every time I was overwhelmed and annoyed.
I’m tired of waking up.
I’m tired of Tuesdays. (A lot of people say Monday is the most annoying day of the week, but I’m a believer Tuesdays are.)
I’m tired of working out.
I’m tired of annoying people.
I’m tired of a crappy, broken world.
Lately, I’ve been really tired. And lately, I haven’t wanted to get out of bed. Not in a depressed way, just in a I don’t want to do today way…in a “I wish it was Saturday”, way. Life has been busy and there has been a lot of little things that are big things and I’m forgetting about my purpose through the busyness of it all.
What is the purpose of all this?
So yes, I feel you. If you clicked on this article chances are you are overwhelmed and annoyed too. Maybe our circumstances are different–but you’re tired too. You want 5 business days, or even just 2 of pure sleep. You want to not be bothered and to feel 16 again. You want your bills to be paid and your patience to grow.
But I’ve noticed in my life the reason I forget what I’m created for is because I’m not looking at my Creator.
Let me say that again: When you stop looking at your Creator, you forget what you were created for. When you stop looking at the One who gave you life, you forget what life is about.
There’s a story in the bible where Peter, one of the men who was closest to Jesus and followed Him when He was on Earth, walked on water. It was in the midst of a storm, He saw Jesus walking on water. I’ll put the scripture at the end of the article, please read it fully.
But anyways, what happened was Jesus was walking on water, Peter saw Jesus walking on water and asked for Him to call out to him. Then Peter starts strutting his stuff on water.
It was all going great. Peter, a man like you and me was walking on water. But then it changed the minute he looked at the wind. “But when Peter began to look at the strong wind, he began to sank…”
I read this recently and laughed. Here I am…in the midst of my busyness I’m out here trying to find my purpose. And ya know what? I do great sometimes. When I look at Jesus, I can find strength, adventure, and joy. I walk on water for a hot second. When I look at Jesus, I can do the unthinkable. But the minute I look at the winds, my busy schedule, what others think of me, or question “what if I mess up?”, I sink. I sink not because the wind is stronger than Jesus, I sink because I lost eyesight of my Savior.
“But when Grace found her worth in her schedule…she began to sink…”
“But when Grace thought her everyday was about her… she began to sink…”
“But when Grace cares more about what other people think of her… she began to sink…”
And like we said, if you stop looking at the One who gave you life, you’ll forget what life is all about.
So to my tired, baggy eyed, frustrated friend– breathe in-and-out. Take one step forward. Keep your eyes on Jesus. Yes, the wind and caffeine are both strong… but Jesus is stronger.Yes, your schedule is busy, but Jesus is greater. Yes, there is a storm going on, but Jesus desires to show you His power in the storm.
So often, I want Jesus to just end the storm. I mean wouldn’t that be nice. Couldn’t He just end my financial problems and crappy situations? And the truth is — yes, He could. But when I read the story about Jesus and Peter walking on water in the midst of the storm — I’m impressed. I see the beauty that comes from a God greater than the storm. So if you’re wondering why there is a storm, maybe it is because Jesus is creating an opportunity for you to be bold. Maybe, the storm is simply a tool given to you by the One who will and can calm the storm.
Friend–take five seconds today to pray for your eyes to stay on Jesus. Life is hectic but Jesus brings peace. The purpose of your everyday is to lock eyes with Him, stand bold in the midst of trouble, and to be someone who gives their life for the One who gave you life.
And on the Tuesdays you don’t want to wake up remember these three things:
- Jesus is working in the midst of your storm.
- Jesus gives your purpose. Your purpose isn’t to wish away the storm. Your purpose is embrace Him and boldness even in the midst of your storm.
- Jesus will calm the storm in His perfect timing. (Notice the storm was calmed when they climbed back in the boat)
Your purpose isn’t your busyness. Your life is gift and let’s thank the Giver. The Giver who also gives us His peace and love everyday. The Giver who wants you to look at Him. The Giver who you get to look at in the midst of a crazy, busy life.
Immediately after this, Jesus insisted that his disciples get back into the boat and cross to the other side of the lake, while he sent the people home. After sending them home, he went up into the hills by himself to pray. Night fell while he was there alone. Meanwhile, the disciples were in trouble far away from land, for a strong wind had risen, and they were fighting heavy waves. About three o’clock in the morning Jesus came toward them, walking on the water. When the disciples saw him walking on the water, they were terrified. In their fear, they cried out, “It’s a ghost!” But Jesus spoke to them at once. “Don’t be afraid,” he said. “Take courage. I am here!” Then Peter called to him, “Lord, if it’s really you, tell me to come to you, walking on the water.” “Yes, come,” Jesus said. So Peter went over the side of the boat and walked on the water toward Jesus. But when he saw the strong wind and the waves, he was terrified and began to sink. “Save me, Lord!” he shouted. Jesus immediately reached out and grabbed him. “You have so little faith,” Jesus said. “Why did you doubt me?” When they climbed back into the boat, the wind stopped. Then the disciples worshiped him. “You really are the Son of God!” they exclaimed.” Matthew 14:22-33
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