Come on God… tell me what you want me to do.
The other week I found myself confused. I did not have a summer plan for the first time in… ever. I did not have an internship yet, and I did not have any idea about where I should go and what I should do.
“God, what are you calling me to do? Where should I go?”
See, yes before you say.. “read the scripture”… I know.
“Where you go, I will go. Where you stay, I will stay.”
I know, I’ve heard it.
But when I had no summer plans a week ago, and was trying to study for my last round of tests before finals, be decently social, and still have time to brush my hair–I was stressed. I was confused. And I was worried. Worried about the future and worried about my purpose.
I wanted God to take me off hold. Answer my question God… Let me know where to go, what to do, and what my purpose is.
I think so often we focus on what God wants us to do, but forget that we serve a Father who desires us to grow in wisdom while on this earth. Maybe for some people God comes down and says… “you will spend your summer in Africa, being a doctor, and you will cure a girl named Ellen.”
I am not denying that God could do that to someone. God can surely tell someone exactly their purpose and plan, and I’m sure He has done that before. What I am denying is that God speaks like that to everyone.
“How do you know?” You ask me…
Well, because God does not speak to me that way. And maybe there is someone reading this who can relate.
Something I struggle with is wishing God would answer me the way I’m used to. I want God to verbally tell me where I should go and what I should do. Or maybe in a dream. That would be cool. I selfishly want the God who created the whole world to speak to me in an obvious way.
However, He is far more powerful than mere words.
Let me be clear. I still do not know where God wants me to go or what God wants me to do. However, what I do know is God does not call me to worry about tomorrow. God doesn’t call me to question my purpose all because I do not have plans. God doesn’t call me to think the unknown means I am doing nothing purposeful. He calls me to faithfully walk with Him by my side in the unknown.
God calls me to trust. He calls me to faithfully believe that He is holding the pen to my story. He calls me to trust that He will deliver answers at the perfect moment. He calls me to remember He is working for my good, and to bring Him glory in the best possible way.
And for me, God speaks through His creation, through my past mistakes, and through life. Hard lessons have turned into blessings when I kneel at His feet. He does not verbally say “go here”, but He leads a path where my heart feels tugged into a certain direction. He closes some doors and faintly knocks on others… I just have to listen for His call.
God does not always speak to you the way you want, but He speaks to you in the way you need. Trust the Creator of puppies, mountains and chocolate to direct your path. Do not become distracted by the worries of tomorrow that you forget to listen for the faint knock.
Until then, I will adventure. I will search for what God means and say yes to each opportunity He presents me that could honor Him.
So to the 20-something who has no clue what they’re doing and feels like God has not presented clear answers– it is okay. Focus on doing today. Focus on giving each present moment to God and letting trust become your habit over worrying. Focus not on the answers He hasn’t given you, but focus on the answer He has given you. You are saved, free, and loved greater than you can ever know. Live for Him by simply living in the present and not worrying about tomorrow.
The best adventures come from trusting Him into the unknown. Faith is about not knowing all the answers, but knowing who you are going to trust.
“If God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers – most of which are never even seen – don’t you think he’ll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you?” Matthew 6:30 MSG