Come on God… tell me what you want me to do.

The other week I found myself confused. I did not have a summer plan for the first time in… ever. I did not have an internship yet, and I did not have any idea about where I should go and what I should do.

“God, what are you calling me to do? Where should I go?”

See, yes before you say.. “read the scripture”… I know.

“Where you go, I will go. Where you stay, I will stay.”

I know, I’ve heard it.

But when I had no summer plans a week ago, and was trying to study for my last round of tests before finals, be decently social, and still have time to brush my hair–I was stressed. I was confused. And I was worried. Worried about the future and worried about my purpose.

I wanted God to take me off hold. Answer my question God… Let me know where to go, what to do, and what my purpose is.

I think so often we focus on what God wants us to do, but forget that we serve a Father who desires us to grow in wisdom while on this earth. Maybe for some people God comes down and says… “you will spend your summer in Africa, being a doctor, and you will cure a girl named Ellen.”

I am not denying that God could do that to someone. God can surely tell someone exactly their purpose and plan, and I’m sure He has done that before. What I am denying is that God speaks like that to everyone.

“How do you know?”  You ask me…

Well, because God does not speak to me that way. And maybe there is someone reading this who can relate.

Something I struggle with is wishing God would answer me the way I’m used to. I want God to verbally tell me where I should go and what I should do. Or maybe in a dream. That would be cool. I selfishly want the God who created the whole world to speak to me in an obvious way.

However, He is far more powerful than mere words. 

Let me be clear. I still do not know where God wants me to go or what God wants me to do. However, what I do know is God does not call me to worry about tomorrow. God doesn’t call me to question my purpose all because I do not have plans. God doesn’t call me to think the unknown means I am doing nothing purposeful. He calls me to faithfully walk with Him by my side in the unknown.

God calls me to trust. He calls me to faithfully believe that He is holding the pen to my story. He calls me to trust that He will deliver answers at the perfect moment. He calls me to remember He is working for my good, and to bring Him glory in the best possible way.

And for me, God speaks through His creation, through my past mistakes, and through life. Hard lessons have turned into blessings when I kneel at His feet. He does not verbally say “go here”, but He leads a path where my heart feels tugged into a certain direction. He closes some doors and faintly knocks on others… I just have to listen for His call.

God does not always speak to you the way you want, but He speaks to you in the way you need. Trust the Creator of puppies, mountains and chocolate to direct your path. Do not become distracted by the worries of tomorrow that you forget to listen for the faint knock.

Until then, I will adventure. I will search for what God means and say yes to each opportunity He presents me that could honor Him.

So to the 20-something who has no clue what they’re doing and feels like God has not presented clear answers– it is okay. Focus on doing today. Focus on giving each present moment to God and letting trust become your habit over worrying. Focus not on the answers He hasn’t given you, but focus on the answer He has given you. You are saved, free, and loved greater than you can ever know. Live for Him by simply living in the present and not worrying about tomorrow.

The best adventures come from trusting Him into the unknown. Faith is about not knowing all the answers, but knowing who you are going to trust.

“If God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers – most of which are never even seen – don’t you think he’ll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you?” Matthew 6:30 MSG

photocreds: @jacobalves

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Written by Grace Valentine

I love Jesus, diet coke and sunflowers. I wish I lived in the mountains, but love the two states I call home--Louisiana and Texas. I can watch Criminal Minds all day and dream of one day owning an ice cream truck for fun. However, my main goal in life is that more girls will realize the worth they have through Christ Jesus--and with Him and Him only we are enough.

12 comments

  1. Holy crap. I’m sure you get this all the time but this is what I needed!! I’m a freshman playing lacrosse in college eight hours away from home and this year has been the most difficult year of my life. From sport to academics, from boys to girls, from being overwhelmed by people to never having felt this lonely in my entire life, I have been a mess. This semester specifically, I was really questioning whether or not this is where I wanted to be and I would constantly pray for answers and wonder why God isn’t just straight up telling me where he wants me and what he wants me to do. But He would slowly answer me through little things and I just needed to trust that, even when I can’t hear/feel him, that doesn’t mean He’s not there. He’s always working.
    Thank you so much for sharing your heart and your words!

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  2. I love this! Such a common question at our age is “What is God’s will for my life?” We get so focused on the details that we forget He just wants us to have a relationship with Him and walk by faith.

    I poked around your blog a little bit and it made me so happy to see that you’re a journalism/PR girl. I’m studying PR as well!!!

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  3. Hi Grace,

    I have been following your blog for a little while now. I often find that where you are in life, specifically in your spiritual journey, is sort of parallel to mine. Thank you so much for your blog. This post especially hit home. A few months ago I decided with God’s help I was going to trust him in the process of trying to go back to college. It’s hard to have faith and recently I had started faltering. Thank you for the wake-up call!

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  4. Oh how awesome and real this is! I can say I’ve heard that still small voice in my life, even in dreams, however I have MANY things I spend days on end praying for an answer and desperately seeking that same voice. It’s so hard to trust something I can’t see or touch, but even harder when it seems the odds are stacked against me. But what I’ve learned is that the times I’ve trusted God the most, the times where he seemed utterly silent He came through in. a BIG way at the final minute when I needed it. I’ve learned that planning is purposeless. It actually takes a lot of time, effort, and thought stamina to plan your day, week, month, or even years. And honestly it’s like King Solomon says in Ecclesiastes, it’s like chasing after wind. Because ultimately it’s Gods plan we want to prevail so why waste our time figuring things out when He’s already done the work! Keep seeking Him, His plans always unfold when you need them!

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    1. Your wisdom is beautiful friend!!! Thank you for sharing this with me! I relate to what you say and there’s power in me too. I love that you says it takes effort and time so true! Praying for you my fellow sister ❤

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