I desire a lot of things.
I want to meet a hot boy and marry him. I want to become a cute mom with a nice SUV. A nice house would be cool as well. I want the ability to one day have a career I love and still be able to drive my future son to soccer practice and my daughter to dance classes. I desire a white picket fence house with one to two animals running around in the backyard.
Oh, also this dream internship, a metabolism that allows me to eat Canes everyday and not gain weight, and maybe just maybe clothes that are fashionable and trendy.
The other day I thought about all the things I desired that weren’t happening and the other day I was laughing at God.
“Hah, you said you would give me the desires of my heart. But nope I’m not seeing them. So much for that God.”
I was frustrated because I thought if I was holding the pen writing my life, my life would be different.
I would get the cute boy and the internship. I would look like that random fitness model I follow for motivation. I would get all my “desires.”
But nope, here I am. I am still waiting to hear from my internship I applied for and my stomach bloats up to the size of a whale by just one potato chip. I am single and at this rate probably won’t be driving my kids anywhere for another 10 years because yeah, I’m not getting married anytime soon. I also only have probably 7 bucks to my name right now.
So, I dared God to try to tell me that he “gives me my desires”.
Nice try, but that’s obviously not true…
But God did that God thing where He showed me I was wrong and He is God.
He tugged on my selfish heart and my sweet Lord said, “Grace, did you even read what I meant?”
So I looked back on the popular verse “the Lord gives you the desires of your heart.”
I read around it a little.
Read it with me, friends:
Trust in the Lord and do good;
dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.
Take delight in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.Commit your way to the Lord;
trust in him and he will do this:He will make your righteous reward shine like the dawn,
your vindication like the noonday sun.Psalm 37:3-6
There’s a few things I tend to miss when referring to this passage. First, take delight in the Lord.
When you take delight in the Lord, you are joyful because of Him.
No need for a a white picket fence or hot boy. The Lord should be your reason for celebrating. One who delights in the Lord wakes up each morning with eyes that look towards Him. Delighting in the Lord means delighting in His goodness. Spoiler alert: God is good all the time, so all the time you rejoice. Yes, this means rejoicing when life doesn’t go your way and you don’t get the text back. This means rejoicing when you gain 5 lbs and fail your midterm.
The next part says, “commit your way to the Lord; trust in him and he will do this…” When we commit our ways to the Lord, we are giving Him our everyday. We are taking our habits and ways of doing things and giving them to Him as an offering. We then become living sacrifices for Him. We then naturally trust Him, through the good and the bad. And with this attitude we see our reward so clearly, and our blame is gone.
So when Chance The Rapper says “when the praises go up, the blessings come down,” I don’t think he is singing about an exchange with God. As if us singing Oceans will make God give us our dream life. Our perspective changes when we worship Christ daily. With a perspective of worship and sacrifice, we are reminded that doing life with Him is the greatest blessing, and each breath we get to use to spread His name is a gift.
Our reward is not a cute boy, white picket fence house, or the American dream. Yes, you want that, but that should never be the desire of your heart. The desire of your heart should be a life with Christ. Your desires should be the Lord’s desires. When you follow Christ, you dance with Him gracefully following each step He takes. You lock eyes with Him, and focus fully on Him, not the crowd watching and not the distractions around.
Your walk with Christ should be this way. Yes, you may want some things from this world, and no, that is not bad. But wake up each morning and desire something more. Desire Jesus, His sweetness and the ability to look like Him. Desire a life that lives and loves. Desire more. More than the American dream and more than a relationship status.
So friend, remember each sunrise to set your eyes on Him. Desire something bigger than a text back. Desire something more wonderful than a good metabolism. Desire more of Him, your biggest cheerleader and Creator. The One who saved you when you didn’t deserve to be saved. The One who gives you eternal satisfaction. The One who desires for you to desire more of Him.