I’m pretty stubborn. I hate to admit when I am wrong. But today I couldn’t help but look at God and say “yeah, you were right”.
I remember praying to God at age 13 that I would would one day sit with the popular girls at lunch and be a part of their friend group. I never sat with that group of girls, but I am thankful for all the friendships the Lord did give me along the way. If God made the popular girls my friends, I would not have had the friendships that I did have while growing up, the ones who made me who I am today.
I remember the time I asked God for the cute boy in high school to stay with me. He and many other boys left me. I’m now 500 miles away from him and could care less. My life would not be nearly as wonderful if the Lord answered that prayer the way I wanted Him to that April of my senior year.
I remember praying that I could look like a Victoria’s Secret Model. God never did answer that prayer back in junior high, but He did uniquely create me in His image. Although I still get insecure, I can not thank enough God for making me, me.
I remember yelling at God – begging Him to speak to me. I wanted evidence, proof He was there. Although I never got a burning bush, through His silence I was able to learn how to communicate with Him in a new way.
I remember my freshman year of high school when I said I wanted to be a doctor. I then took Biology, and even though I prayed to be good at science so I could make big bucks one day, the Lord told me no and made that class the last Biology class I would ever encounter. Now, I am a journalism major with a blog founded on Jesus and my love for helping girls find their worth in Christ. And this blog has been seen by almost 3 million people worldwide.
I remember praying to God to heal my best friend with cancer. I asked Him to let her stay on this earth and take me instead. I asked Him to spare her life. I asked Him to work a miracle on her and heal her. God said no, and took her to Heaven. Although it still stinks, and I don’t know why she had to suffer, I know God has given me a guardian angel and she is dancing with Him daily.
Some of God’s greatest gifts come from Him saying no. Some of the greatest adventures come from God closing the door to what you planned.When God says no, He says yes to something even greater than you made in your 5 year plan.
We so often think we know what is best. We think our plan is better than His, and that we have life under control. But the truth is, God’s plan is greater than anything we could ever imagine. The Creator of sunflowers, galaxies and kittens has personally created a plan for your life. You are not where you are by coincidence. You have meaning in this world and are meant for bigger things than the boy who broke your heart at 17. What a beautiful thought.
Here’s the truth: when I was locked in my bathroom crying over the boy who broke my heart, the test I failed, the girl who hated me, and the death of a loved one, I was mad at God. I had no clue what He was doing. Truth is that God is/was teaching me there is good in goodbye, His plan is greater, and that trusting God doesn’t mean understanding what He is doing, it means following Him in the unknown. Tears, failure and God saying no to you does not mean it is time to go with “Plan B”. It means it is time to go for what the guy who handcrafted you has in store for you.
You have potential. You have many gifts that God will use if you decide to follow Him. Take His unanswered prayers as opportunities to grow in trust with Him.
Yes, that breakup that you spent three months crying about while listening to T-Swift is a part of His plan. You not getting into your dream school is also a part of His plan.
Sometimes God gives us rainstorms only to reveal a rainbow after. You can decide to stay in your house while crying and pouting complaining the rain ruined your plans. Or, you can dance in the rain and look up to see the rainbow God grants us in even the worst of storms.
Chin up kids, God saying no can take you on a beautiful adventure. One day when you are dancing up at the gates looking back on your time while on Earth, I doubt you will remember the boy who broke your heart, the test you failed, or the hurricane that stole your house. You will remember the strength you found in Christ, even in the worst of battles. You will remember the love of your Creator, even when you felt unloved. You will remember how great the author of your life is continually. And as the great Darius Rucker once sang, maybe just maybe when your eyes meet your maker you will say, “Thank God for all I missed, because it led me here to this.”
“A person plans his course, but the Lord directs his steps.” — Proverbs 16:9
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